Is This Jolly Enough, I Ask You?
Updated: Apr 9
So, something happened recently that reminded me how some people expect me to be “upbeat” allllll the time. It's simply not possible. No one can remain happy genuinely all the time. Yet this false belief seems to be associated to me.
Here's a picture of me in 2019. I was taking it because I wanted to document my weight gain and eventual weight loss. This was one of the hardest times of my life. Right here. A man I had been with who I thought I would marry, broke my heart while we were on a trip together. 💔
This was me, back in Nashville (where it happened), trying to do improve myself by doing some courses to help myself move on and achieve my goals for the year. 🎯 BUT, I was absolutely miserable! I'm talking: crying every day, randomly, while I was working or exercising or laying in bed at night. 😭
It's just impossible to be happy all the time. Especially when one is trying to reach major goals. Big barriers always seem to come up for my big goals! It's some serious pressure to feel like you have to be the "best" at all times. 🤦♀️
Is that part of being a leader? I don't know. I would like to think that being a leader is showing people, shit happens, But guess what? I overcame it. I led in that way. 💪